What's, no Who's New

John Paul; Jack for short was born after almost 40 hours of the roughest labor that I've ever seen...much worse than anything I'd gone through. Mom and Dad and Jack are doing well. His mom and dad will go home tomorrow, Jack will have to stay a while longer. But I did get a few minutes to hold him last night.

Yahoo!

I was a bit scared this past week.  My manager from work is leaving to take another job and I was afraid that my new manager would be any one of a number of totally unacceptable people. The group that I have been in for the past 5 years is infamous for its micromanagers.  I am so happy to say that I have been liberated!!!  My new manager is my good friend Tawna.  And the best part is she is with a totally different reporting group.  I've even been liberated from the group I've been with.  I am so HAPPY :)

 

Expecting Love

The problem with expecting someone to love you is find out that they don't.  When that happens it's just an empty sad feeling and there's nothing you can do about it.  You can't make someone love you, even someone who's supposed to like a child or a spouse.  You just have to move on without them.  It just leaves me feeling empty, and cold.

 

Med Day

I had two appointments today and the first was great. I went to see my surgeon and the first thing was a sign on her door that said "Hard Hat Area"...They moved her office upstairs and the view in every room was great. It's a nice new office, and her staff seem a lot less stressed there. The nicest thing is that now there are more waiting rooms and a private one for women who are getting bad news, and must wait for more tests and procedures. It's a vast improvement.

Then I went to lunch at my favorite restaurant. The food was good as ususal. The company left a lot to be desired. I was on the phone and the guys at the table beside me decided that it would be fun to yell. The conversation that I was having was a bit stressful, so, well, the company could have been better. And I wasn't feeling well and didn't eat much of my lunch.

Then I went to the last appointment of the day. Last time I had a scheduled appointment with this doctor, he looked a 2 week old labs and decided I was fine. Later that day I went to the hospital by ambulance. Today I wasn't feeling well either. My labs weren't 2 weeks old, but they weren't good either. He suggested that I call my cardiologist about increasing one of my medications and that I increase the medications that he perscribes. It will put me almost back at the same medications that sent me to the emergency room to begin with. That sounds bad, but I don't think it was the meds that were the problem, but that the problem made the meds inappropiate. And I do feel safer with the meds. But my cardiologist's phones were down. I wasn't able to get through until everyone had left the office. Funny how the woman who answered the phone tried to make it seem like "Oh, you should have called sooner, everyone left." I left a message and they should call me back in the morning. I wonder how long I should wait for that to happen. So tonight, my heart is racing...sometimes more than 120 beats per minute while I'm sitting still. I'm going to take the medicine and see if I can get it to stop. Stop racing, not stop beating.