It was my daughter's birthday today and I'm kind of sad and missing her. This isn't the first one that she ever spent away from me; you'd be surprised at how many camps have their weeks in the middle of June, but...well, I don't know. This one feels different. She isn't with anyone who I actually know well and I'm not getting happy pictures of her blowing out candles. It's hard. I think that the first birthday that she ever spent away was when she was 12. I was in chemo at the time and I was glad for the distraction for her. I was glad that my church family who were the ones running the camp knew how hard it was for her and that it was her birthday. So they threw her a big party with cake and balloons and presents, because that's just the way this part of the body of Christ rolls. If she'd been with me she would have been watching me sick from chemo that day, not being able to lift my head up from the pillow for anything more than trips to the bathroom.
I talked to her. She said that she'd applied for jobs all day and hung out on the boardwalk. I asked her if she'd done anything special, and she said no. She didn't think anyone other than Thomas knew it was her birthday. That he isn't romantic enough to bake her a box mix cake or, I don't know, take her to Arby's, kind of worries me. Her father was like that and it hurt my feelings on too many occasions. Still, she seemed like she liked where she is at. She told me that she'd applied to a very close-by restaurant that she was interested in. I hope they were enchanted by her southern belle appeal and will hire her right away.
It just feels wrong not having her with me. Hell! It feels wrong not having any of my kids near by.
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I'll say a special prayer for her, Emmy. I pray she finds just the right position, one just for her.
Thank you Crysalis. I love you.
Ditto, Emmy.
I didn't just say it either...I DID it for her. Watch...she's going to find something good for her. First time might not be her dream, but the things she will learn there will teach her some things that will lead to the one she loves (or) she could get lucky and land the one she loves first thing. Tell her to go by her gut when she's being interviewed. Does she get a good feeling or is she uneasy? Good luck to her!
You can't believe how much of the things that you are saying are echoing the things being said in my soul. I do appreciate your prayers and your encouragement
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