Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Bob and I talked a lot this weekend.
In a way it is heady that he respects my views. After all, he is the doctor and I am the patient, but he is the patient now and I am the one who fairly successfully ravaged the storm of cancer. I still feel woefully inadequate to the task, though I would never consider denying my friend of my viewpoint. I want him to watch 50/50. It is a realistic view of life as a cancer patient. And it is better because it doesn't deal with breast cancer. It talks about a rare cancer. I got a common cancer for women over 40, Bob got a common cancer for men over 60. It all sucks. Chemo sucks, there is nothing nice to say about it. WE HATE CANCER!!!!!!!!! just doesn't do it. CANCER SUCKS!!!!!!! doesn't do it either, even though both are true. We do hate that we have cancer and it sucks. But it still doesn't remove the fact that we have cancer. Even when we are in remission and have no overt sign of cancer, we still have cancer. I have no doubt that Bob will go into remission, I really expect that he will die with his disease, not from it, but he will always have to fight it now. I don't welcome anyone to this club.