"It is with disease of the mind, as with those of the body; we are half dead before we understand our disorder, and half cured when we do." C. C. Colton
This is especially true with me and I'm looking at the quote from so many angles it is difficult to know where to begin. Very few of my afflictions have had straight forward answers. It seems that even doctors working together seem to disagree with what is causing any particular set of symptoms. I think the only straight forward diagnosis that I've ever gotten outside of pregnancy was breast cancer. Even LQTS has been debated. Even this past weekend one of the cardiologist came in and said " We aren't seeing any evidence of an arrhythmia, who told you that you had LQTS. When I told them Dr. K, they immediately backed off and said well, he works with us and will review your ecg's. I already knew this. But the thing is they all seem to dis the other's work.
The other side of this is even when they tell me a solid diagnosis, like the pernicious anemia that I have recently been diagnosed with, I google it to death trying to understand what is going on with my body. When I finally feel that I can understand what is happening with me, I feel as if maybe I can make the best of what I can do to control whatever it is.
And my 15 minutes are up and I don't feel that I have adequately described what I feel about that quote.