Irritable

I don't know why, I am just irritable today. It might be that I stayed up late last night to hear how things were going with Jack. He fell out of the bathtub last night and had to have a CT scan and get Factor VIII. The scan showed that there was no bleed so it was just a scare. I'm glad he's fine; sorry that he had to go through so much to find that out.

I put a post here last night, but after reading it today I decided that if certain members of my family read it  that they might think I had misrepresented some of what I said. I don't think that I did, but I was barely four years old when the things I wrote about happened and it is all together possible that I misunderstood the situation. I moved that post to my private blog and erased it from here.

While I was changing that post read a few of the blogs I am following and it has me contemplating the method I use to blog. I read one blogger whom I think sometimes gets a little high maintenance and was very put off. Then I read another blog post where the writer was complaining about what is happening with his industry. Then I read a blog where the writer tends to write feel good stories about the things that are happening around her. She sometimes complains, but that is rare. Overall, she's just a good storyteller. Today I felt her story was uplifting and funny. My blog has been a little on the dark side lately.   The things I'm writing about are neither funny or uplifting, mainly they are venting steam regarding the state of my health. I suppose this is what the blog was meant to do. But I don't feel it is very interesting or effective. Some blogs like Sixuntilme educate people about diseases, mine tends to just complain about them. I'd like to write about more positive things and maybe distill more factual information, but then that would change the reason I'm writing this blog in the first place. So working through all that I thought about my annoyance of the first two blogs that I read and realized that maybe the reason the author is writing them is to have a safe place to work out the stickiness of their lives. Maybe I shouldn't be judging them so harshly.

As I said, I'm just irritable today. The biggest pet peeve that I have is being interrupted. I think that it is disrespectful. It says to the person "you and your ideas are inferior to what I have to say." At church this morning every conversation I was in was interrupted by someone. Friends would be talking to me and someone else would come up and begin a different conversation. One actually took my friend by the shoulders and turned her around to exclude me from the conversation. Just totally rude. I didn't really want to be drawn into the situation that we were discussing anyway, but still that is just rude. The other part of that irritation was that I was drawn into that situation by everyone involved and there was absolutely no reason for me to be part of it.

The point of this post I guess is to get some of the burrs out of my hide so I can be more patient with people and not easily offended. That happened today too. Someone wrote a Facebook comment that I'd misread and decided not to respond to. It's a good thing that I made that decision because a few comments later the true intent came to light and the person wasn't saying what I thought they were.

Maybe I should go work on my genealogy. I doubt people living hundreds of years ago can do much to insult me.

And if you think the things in this post are random, they are. I will probably try to make it more cohesive later but for now I'm just getting the thoughts out of my head.